Unto everyone, OHMYGOODNESS ! I haven't made even a glimpse at my  page. I left tumblr and blogger for so long till i felt the eager to refresh everything and start tumblring and blogging again. I truly missed it. Left these for almost a year ! And I had an uncountable  numbers of stories to be told. They are, exciting and beautiful. HAHA. okaayyy. till the next post. toodles !

I ignored two of my friends today. I don't do that for no reason. They really brought me to my nerves yesterday. I hate what they said. But I didn't shouted back. I walk away, looking cool. ehem* but I wasn't calm. I was angry, very very angry. I felt like burning up their faces, choke them, kick them in the ass, rip them into pieces, arrow them on the heart, spit on their faces, hit them with a baseball bat and slap them hard. My heart was beating like mad. I kept it in my heart but I let go a little bit. I screamed a few words to let them I know that I was pissed off. Well, not on their faces but away from them.

           Today, I planned to speak a word. But when school hours was about to end, yes I spoke a word or two. Still, at first, I know that they can't figure why I did that. But, in the end, I think they did because suddenly, when I was talking to my other friends, both of them came to me and one of them tried to touch my face. I shoved. They really tore my mood yesterday, and, not a word of sorry? They spoke things when they didn't know the real thing. You think I can walk away just like that, with no feelings. I am not mad.

Am I ready? Am I ready? I've asked myself this question like a billion times and the answer remains the same, I don't know. Well yeah, look at me, still stuck infront of the laptop. I just have to. I can't focus on the paper without looking on the screen. Because? I'll fall asleep. FAST. I am sleepy and I can't afford to pile up my homeworks. So I got to get it done. Back to the question, am I ready? That is a question that can just struck my heart with an arrow and it sticks there for a while. I don't want to talk much about Trial and the Big Exam. It's frustating and tension.

          BTW, I worked the fishtail braid on my hair yesterday night for almost one hour. Gosh, my hands were so damn tired but, at last yeah I did the fishtail brais. I was so happy. I'm really into it. Yeah, well I'll consider about putting the pictures of the braid I took. Okay, homeworks calling ;) kay bye

          My mind's juggling fast. Thinking about him isn't worth it. Morning is just another day but time moves very slowly. So, the run will be a bore and I know, i'll just be walking with the other lazy legs. I'm waiting for my mom to come back from her friend's house. She said she's going to Port Dickson tomorrow after this. God, I wish she changes her mind. It is out of anything logical. And yes, tomorrow i'll be watching Transformers with Kerry as it is her birthday. I've been playing Adele's songs again and again. And it's not because i'm broken hearted no. The songs are just so good. I think I annoy people lately with my Adele songs. I've been non stop singing her songs. HAHA. seriously.
          Okay, i'm planning what to wear tomorrow. Isn't that crazy? haha. That shows how bored I am. I am really really and truly bored. Adele songs are high in it's quality. okay.

Even though sometimes, I feel, my family shakes, I am very grateful Him for giving me such perfect family. I only knew about my the news of my lil cousins, 3 of them, had their parents separated and tht moment, when my father told me about that, my mind took me to a thought, "what will happen to these children. God help them" Because it became worst when it's their mother who's looking forward for the divorce thingie. My uncle had his problems. My her wife wasn't very good either. She decided to let her husband handle the children and she has her hands free. She won't think of her children, and let things go. Like, she isn't a mother and what may happen to those poor kids happen. HEY BASTARD! I LOVE THE WAY YOU FANCY MY UNCLE. BULLSHIT.

          Woman like this should be cut into pieces. Seriously, at least, let the kids stay with their mother. What on Earth was she thinking. Her children are at these ages. Eldest - 9 years old, second, 6 years old, and last 5 years old. I know, the way her eledest act lately, was like she knew everything that's happening around her. She knew her parents were at a peak. I felt like crying to see them that way. Just now, their dad sent them to our house and will pick them up for dinner. So, they didn't take dinner at my house and waited for their dad. At 9.20 or something, after they called their dad like a thousand times, then their father picked them up, and told them happiest thing, that he's gonna take them to TC for dinner. My heart was screaming. It was so sad yet wonderful for them laaaaa.

p:s/ to ex auntie who's in KL right now who's looking forward for a divorce, who leave her children with her husband with no heart. I hope you have a great life and I hope you won't find a husband as great as my uncle.
Another p:s/ Did you do this to your kids before. Taking them out to dinner. If it wasn't my uncle's money, you won't be wearing the blouse you're wearing right now.

So, you guys just gotta know, I've joined scout since I was in standard 4. Active and really active since I was in in Form 1. Yeap, in form 1, I only missed one activity in scout and that was Kawad Hari Sukan. Form 2, I never miss any of their activity. This year, so far, I missed 2. I can't afford to join everything this year as I'm facing PMR. Hell yeah. So, I decided, the latest camping trip I joined, that was 2 days ago will be the last scout activity  before PMR. So, in this column, i'll be telling a little this and that about my camporee ;)

          The night before camporee. I wasn't that excited as I was during my first camporee when I was in form 1. It's a pretty normal thing for me. Packing my things for the next day, yes, i remembered every thing I have to bring. It's the same old thing. I even finished packing the next morning. So, my dad sent me to school. I waited for other people. But I was quite excited for this year's camporee because, the  people who'll be representing my school was umm.. cool! haha.

           We got there around ten something and guess what, our campsite was been taken by SMK VOKASIONAL FUCKYEA! They are bastards(ooops) leaving us a campsite which got muddy on rainy days and the ground was 'hilly' as I called it. I was the commander for kawad tongkat which was scheduled on the second day. Mehehe, yes I was the only female commander. I was freaking scared. I lost the command paper. Adding more fear in me. So, I tried to ask from a friend of mine from Panglima Perang. Her 'big boss' was stingy towards us. Us? no, I lied to my leader when he asked me, "You have the command paper with you right?" and "You memorized everything, haven't you?" and I answered yes to both questions. Which was also a lie. But at last, after competing with three schools ONLY, (because there wasn't many schools who knew how to do the kawad tongkat. yeap) I won the second place. WOHOOO! the only female commander there. It was after all my first time leading a squad. woot woot;)

          I don't wanna tell the whole thing. Ask questions for more information. I'm so freaking lazy to tell people. SABS won almost everything. We both fought and stand together and put SMK Pandan and the gang dow. haha. that's all. love ya :D

if you're hoping to get something

lesson#2 : you just gotta be patient. If you do, it will come to you
Advantages : Like me, I though I wouldn't get my phone so I was being patient. All of a sudden, out of the blue, my dad told me, my mom was buying me a new number :)

Unto everyone, OHMYGOODNESS ! I haven't made even a glimpse at my  page. I left tumblr and blogger for so long till i felt the eager to refresh everything and start tumblring and blogging again. I truly missed it. Left these for almost a year ! And I had an uncountable  numbers of stories to be told. They are, exciting and beautiful. HAHA. okaayyy. till the next post. toodles !

I ignored two of my friends today. I don't do that for no reason. They really brought me to my nerves yesterday. I hate what they said. But I didn't shouted back. I walk away, looking cool. ehem* but I wasn't calm. I was angry, very very angry. I felt like burning up their faces, choke them, kick them in the ass, rip them into pieces, arrow them on the heart, spit on their faces, hit them with a baseball bat and slap them hard. My heart was beating like mad. I kept it in my heart but I let go a little bit. I screamed a few words to let them I know that I was pissed off. Well, not on their faces but away from them.

           Today, I planned to speak a word. But when school hours was about to end, yes I spoke a word or two. Still, at first, I know that they can't figure why I did that. But, in the end, I think they did because suddenly, when I was talking to my other friends, both of them came to me and one of them tried to touch my face. I shoved. They really tore my mood yesterday, and, not a word of sorry? They spoke things when they didn't know the real thing. You think I can walk away just like that, with no feelings. I am not mad.

Am I ready? Am I ready? I've asked myself this question like a billion times and the answer remains the same, I don't know. Well yeah, look at me, still stuck infront of the laptop. I just have to. I can't focus on the paper without looking on the screen. Because? I'll fall asleep. FAST. I am sleepy and I can't afford to pile up my homeworks. So I got to get it done. Back to the question, am I ready? That is a question that can just struck my heart with an arrow and it sticks there for a while. I don't want to talk much about Trial and the Big Exam. It's frustating and tension.

          BTW, I worked the fishtail braid on my hair yesterday night for almost one hour. Gosh, my hands were so damn tired but, at last yeah I did the fishtail brais. I was so happy. I'm really into it. Yeah, well I'll consider about putting the pictures of the braid I took. Okay, homeworks calling ;) kay bye

          My mind's juggling fast. Thinking about him isn't worth it. Morning is just another day but time moves very slowly. So, the run will be a bore and I know, i'll just be walking with the other lazy legs. I'm waiting for my mom to come back from her friend's house. She said she's going to Port Dickson tomorrow after this. God, I wish she changes her mind. It is out of anything logical. And yes, tomorrow i'll be watching Transformers with Kerry as it is her birthday. I've been playing Adele's songs again and again. And it's not because i'm broken hearted no. The songs are just so good. I think I annoy people lately with my Adele songs. I've been non stop singing her songs. HAHA. seriously.
          Okay, i'm planning what to wear tomorrow. Isn't that crazy? haha. That shows how bored I am. I am really really and truly bored. Adele songs are high in it's quality. okay.

Even though sometimes, I feel, my family shakes, I am very grateful Him for giving me such perfect family. I only knew about my the news of my lil cousins, 3 of them, had their parents separated and tht moment, when my father told me about that, my mind took me to a thought, "what will happen to these children. God help them" Because it became worst when it's their mother who's looking forward for the divorce thingie. My uncle had his problems. My her wife wasn't very good either. She decided to let her husband handle the children and she has her hands free. She won't think of her children, and let things go. Like, she isn't a mother and what may happen to those poor kids happen. HEY BASTARD! I LOVE THE WAY YOU FANCY MY UNCLE. BULLSHIT.

          Woman like this should be cut into pieces. Seriously, at least, let the kids stay with their mother. What on Earth was she thinking. Her children are at these ages. Eldest - 9 years old, second, 6 years old, and last 5 years old. I know, the way her eledest act lately, was like she knew everything that's happening around her. She knew her parents were at a peak. I felt like crying to see them that way. Just now, their dad sent them to our house and will pick them up for dinner. So, they didn't take dinner at my house and waited for their dad. At 9.20 or something, after they called their dad like a thousand times, then their father picked them up, and told them happiest thing, that he's gonna take them to TC for dinner. My heart was screaming. It was so sad yet wonderful for them laaaaa.

p:s/ to ex auntie who's in KL right now who's looking forward for a divorce, who leave her children with her husband with no heart. I hope you have a great life and I hope you won't find a husband as great as my uncle.
Another p:s/ Did you do this to your kids before. Taking them out to dinner. If it wasn't my uncle's money, you won't be wearing the blouse you're wearing right now.

So, you guys just gotta know, I've joined scout since I was in standard 4. Active and really active since I was in in Form 1. Yeap, in form 1, I only missed one activity in scout and that was Kawad Hari Sukan. Form 2, I never miss any of their activity. This year, so far, I missed 2. I can't afford to join everything this year as I'm facing PMR. Hell yeah. So, I decided, the latest camping trip I joined, that was 2 days ago will be the last scout activity  before PMR. So, in this column, i'll be telling a little this and that about my camporee ;)

          The night before camporee. I wasn't that excited as I was during my first camporee when I was in form 1. It's a pretty normal thing for me. Packing my things for the next day, yes, i remembered every thing I have to bring. It's the same old thing. I even finished packing the next morning. So, my dad sent me to school. I waited for other people. But I was quite excited for this year's camporee because, the  people who'll be representing my school was umm.. cool! haha.

           We got there around ten something and guess what, our campsite was been taken by SMK VOKASIONAL FUCKYEA! They are bastards(ooops) leaving us a campsite which got muddy on rainy days and the ground was 'hilly' as I called it. I was the commander for kawad tongkat which was scheduled on the second day. Mehehe, yes I was the only female commander. I was freaking scared. I lost the command paper. Adding more fear in me. So, I tried to ask from a friend of mine from Panglima Perang. Her 'big boss' was stingy towards us. Us? no, I lied to my leader when he asked me, "You have the command paper with you right?" and "You memorized everything, haven't you?" and I answered yes to both questions. Which was also a lie. But at last, after competing with three schools ONLY, (because there wasn't many schools who knew how to do the kawad tongkat. yeap) I won the second place. WOHOOO! the only female commander there. It was after all my first time leading a squad. woot woot;)

          I don't wanna tell the whole thing. Ask questions for more information. I'm so freaking lazy to tell people. SABS won almost everything. We both fought and stand together and put SMK Pandan and the gang dow. haha. that's all. love ya :D

if you're hoping to get something

lesson#2 : you just gotta be patient. If you do, it will come to you
Advantages : Like me, I though I wouldn't get my phone so I was being patient. All of a sudden, out of the blue, my dad told me, my mom was buying me a new number :)

Okay, here's the thing. I can't help myself from loving Taylor Swift. I found out that my expression in my 'about me' sucked! So, just now, I just read Taylor Swift's 'about me' and I can't stop myself from reading. It was great. I've been her fan and sometimes I thought if Taylor Swift could ever be my sister. I have no sisters blaaaa. So let me start off by, Hi I'm Balqish. I am 15 years old and I grow older every 15th of July and my lucky number is 15. I love my cardigan and my black flats but not as much as I love my family. Taylor Swift inspires me a lot and she gave me some ideas on how to write about myself because I was born to be speechless everytime i'm asked to tell about myslef. How do I begin. No, I don't know. Reading her essay gives me something to tell. I over-think things and sometimes i'm crazy. I can't miss telling you that I am talkative. I tell you, if you're in my shoe, you won't suit yourself because I am a totally different human. I hope God won't make any other human who is similar to me so that'll make me special. I love spaghetti that my mom cooks. It's a recipe from my grandmother. I make sure that my hands know how to use a pan. My junior years in High School sucks and from that, thank God I learn about boys. In every stories of a girl, there must be a chapter of her about guys or love and in most stories of the artists in Hollywood where i'm free to rock the stage, they were picked on in their junior high. Isn't that pathetic? Well, awesome for me that nobody in my life had ever tried to ruin my school years, and years to come I hope that won't happen because if that happens, I'll call my cats at home right away and scare the beejezus outta those b*****s. Yes, b*****s, most of them hates and scared of cats. See? Those things I said, I was out of the way. I am talkative. I don't want to talk much here but there's one more thing, I hate cowards. Me myself, I'm not that real tough but i'm pretty tough inside. No matter what I do, I always remind myself that life is just a piece of cake. You fail if you eat, but you're tough enough if you stand up, give a pissing stare at the cake and walk away. Singing is my obsession. Reading is my well, yeap, still a hobby. So thanks you to eeryone who viewed and spent your precious time reading this piece of whatever. I know that you probably have some other good stuffs to do. But anyway, Thank You. As Taylor Swift(probablyitsannoyingyesiknow) had wrote... I love like sparkles and having the last word. And that's real love. --Balqish :)

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